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The outline

The outline of the story is simple. We met in Paris. I was there for a conference. She took part in the organization. I asked her out for dinner. She agreed, and we spent the night together. Back in Amsterdam, I called her. We both liked eachother and agreed to meet the next weekend in Paris. There I said "welcome into my life." Since she had already planned to go to the States for a few weeks, I proposed to meet in New York, to celebrate my birthday. We had a party for two. She dressed up very chique, and we went out for dinner. She gave me a pen, as a present. Back in Amsterdam, I wrote her two letters. Love letters. I mentioned the thought of marriage, of living together. When she came back, I went to Paris to pick her up, to go to Amsterdam. We were all excited. I had already met her parents and her family, and they all liked me, her future husband. Things had taken a quick turn. Two weeks later, we went back to Paris to pick up her things with a rented van. I still have a picture of that. We look very happy. In the mean time, we started organizing our life. We improved the apartment, bought various cupboards, ordered a new bathroom, and did an incredible amount of paperwork to get her a residence permit. She also started learning Dutch. Never things were done so harmoniously and efficiently. Finally, we got our wedding papers ready. We invited the family, and the wedding took place. Immediately after the wedding, on our holidays, everything collapsed. It appeared to have been false pretense all along. She said we didn't have anything in common, we never had intelligent conversations, she didn't know anything about me ... I was shocked, in despair. I had told her everything about my life, more than I have ever told anyone before. In her all the women I had been in love with converged. Suddenly, it turned all against me. I am still on my feet, but I need to find my way back, my way back to life. I need to relive this episode and investigate my past, to find how the dream could turn into a nightmare, to understand why, blinded by my love for her, I went over the edge, to awake in utter despair and loneliness.
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