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I wrote: Abortion

The baby is being aborted now. I am struggling between my desire to love you and my impulse to kill you, to hate you. If I make life difficult for you, you will disappear forever. If I am sweet to you, you will tolerate me and maybe use me. Was I no more than a vehicle for your fantasies? After all what has happened these last weeks, I tend to reduce our story to a simple story of sex, embellished with a marriage fantasy to kill the time inbetween making love. I will miss your body very much. Never have I kissed such a perfect sex. The moistening, the smell, your taste will remain in my mind. The pleasure of touching you. A lovely story, indeed.

I have seen two women coming out. Totally desperate. A sad look in their eyes. An abortion is not a trivial thing. What are you going to do with your life? And I, what am I going to do with my life now? Going back to Paris might well mean that you take up your life with your bad genius again. Anyway, I will be lonely. Or maybe I will meet somebody really lovely and tender this time. You were never tender. Go back to childhood, playing an independent woman now.


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