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I wrote: We should have
We wanted everything to be perfect.
Everything seemed to be perfect, upto and including
the wedding.
Looking at it now, the wedding was fake, a circus.
We should have:
- bought ourselves new clothes
- postponed the whole thing
- never done it at all
You just told me your ex-lover designed the dress,
and bought the shoes.
You should have:
On the other hand, I should have:
- kept my mouth at certain times
- opened it at other times
- not get involved in a marriage
- kept to my style
We got married because we wanted to.
To prove eachother that we loved eachother.
But above all, to prove to ourselves
that we could get married.
We both tried desperately to be
normal.
For you it was the realization of what you had wanted
to do twice before.
For me, it was a completely new idea,
based on some image
of man and wife, as in the movies.
It didn't work because:
- we were never serious about it
- we were too greedy
- we were too serious about it
and we were too busy with sex.
We should have talked what it is to live
a life together, instead.
Also, we did want to have a child.
But the child has been killed.
It was a premature decision.
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(C) Æliens
2005
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